July 6th, 2005
|12:24 am - i learned what love is...|
i learned what love is...
so i guess everybody had a pretty great 4th. mine was ok. it had its good parts. and it had a lot of bad parts. so around 11 i went with JIMBO (are you happy now :) just kiddin) and ate and saw a movie. it was good to hang out with him again. i haven't done that in a long time. i've missed him. we shot fireworks at cars and at my mom. :) i got my swimsuit and we went and picked up some stuff and went to east beach. fun time. stuart taught me how to skimboard. so did this little kid who was like 6. he was really sweet. he is gonna be a heartbreaker when he gets older. then patrick, jt, seth, and taylor came down there. it was ok. i managed to not cry in front of him. yes...i miss him. yes...i will always love him. i just get upset seeing him because of how things ended. over a dumb fucking rumor. nat believes me. finally. some people are starting to. the only thing i wish...well that might actually happen...is for him to genuinely believe me. if he never wants to talk to me again. fine. if he never wants to see me again. fine. if he never wants anything to do with me again. fine. all i want is for him to belive the truth.
as we used to think...love is patient. love is kind. it does not envy. it does not boast. love is not proud. it is not self seeking. it is not easily angered and keeps no record of wrongs. and above all things love rejoices not in evil but in truth...love never fails.
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: Mandy Moore - From Loving You
i'm sorry to see you hurt again, i know i haven't talk to you in along time which is sad. i hope to see you smile again. Although the pain you feel makes you feel weak, your a very strong person you should always hold on to that.. never give up the hope that is inside of you. I only hope that one day you'll find that person that makes your world. until then just look to stars to help and guide you threw this misguided world.
this is most likely the last time i'll talk to you.. but i hope not take care.
|Date:||July 22nd, 2005 11:48 pm (UTC)|| |
That one magical night...